I’ve decided to make my move… Again.
I miss blogging. I miss blogspot.
And you can find me there…
I’m waiting for a revelation. And it starts now…
Today I learnt that love doesn’t move mountains.
Today I learnt that promises are really meant to be broken.
Today I learnt that you can love someone, but not completely.
Today I learnt that even if you are rather in love with someone, you can still think of someone else, that someone who was your “could have been”.
Today I learnt why Samson loved Delilah.
Today I learnt that there is a bigger part of me, who is able to love, illogically.
Today I learnt that sometimes, being a badass, is for the good of all goodness.
Today I learnt, that what I’ve believed all along, was just from storybooks, romantic movies & overrated relationships.
Today, a part of me died.
Today, I died.
I found the bigger part of me to forgive, let go & to be strong for the one who hurt me. Because I know, everybody makes mistakes, even if they know it hurts the ones they love…
We always thought we’d look back on our tears and laugh, but we never thought we’d look back on our laughter and cry.
I decided to cut you out of my life last year, quit caring for you & I’ve developed a steel heart for you ever since. I was & I still am happy since then. I’m happy with my refound love, with my life (most of the time) & of course, there’s no you to think about. And now, you’re reaching out, you’re telling me something, you want me to know something. Something so fucking precious yet pathetic. Why?! You could’ve done it last year, when I cared, when I loved you with all my heart, when I was there… Why now??
I have given up so much. I lost people, their time & love which they once had for me. I miss my friends, I miss Mary, I miss myself. And the truth is, I don’t know how to be strong enough to get pass this. I’m not as strong as I thought I was & I thought I could handle everything but I lost it. I’ve lost everything… Even my own family. So God help me.
Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.
I used to write beautifully. I used to turn words into feelings which moved people. What happened to that part of me?
Cause baby you are mine mine… Mine mine mine… Don’t walk away…
I miss you
If I had begged you to stay, maybe you won’t have passed away…